My EA said that I need to stop writing my novel and concentrate on my feature article in English. When I heard this I went into a great depression that effected me all threw my co-op. It tore me up alot that she told me to do this. I don't know why, maybe it's because she said it so harshly, I don't think she was aware of it.
Anyway, this really tore me up on the inside. I mean I was depressed. I felt like a complete wreck. I have been wondering why I was recently and I have come to this conclusion. I was so depressed because I don't want to stop writing the novel. I like the novel, I like Naos and Helen. They havn't let me down as much as society has. Society has been letting me down alot and I am starting to look at it as my enemy. I'm having alot of problems with society, which is mainly school. I've felt to many things come up right now and I'm worried about my future. I'm not sure I want to be a productive member of society. I'm not sure I want to pay taxes. I'm not sure I want to have all this homework. I'm starting to feel jipped.
The thing is I can't really complain because there is no one to complain too. Writing my novel allows me to go to a world where I am in charge and everything is alright. I feel more comfortable with Naos and Helen and all the rest of the things in my head. While external society can disapoint me, I know that I can always rely on my imagination.
I'm going to continue to write my novel anyway. I don't care, I can't stay in your world all the time.
| You Should Get An All Over Tattoo |
 Outrageous and funky Because you should never have to choose just one tattoo |
Yeah, I should become one of those people with multiple tatoos.
| What You Really Think Of Your Friends |
| Naos is your soulmate. |
| You truly love Helen. |
| You consider Ar'Ehdo your true friend. |
| You know that Ka Lynn is always thinking of you. |
| You'll remember Ralph for the rest of your life. |
| You secretly think Ralph is creative, charming, and a bit too dramatic at times. |
| You secretly think that Dana is colorful, impulsive, and a total risk taker. |
| You secretly think that Ralph is loyal and trustworthy to you. And that Ralph changes lovers faster than underwear. |
| You secretly think Ar'Ehdo is shy and nonconfrontational. And that Ar'Ehdo has a hidden internet romance. |
Yes, I did my imaginary friends. I'll do you guys another time once I figure out more about you. Also, I think it's funny that it says Ar'Ehdo has an internet romance. His only romance has been an on and off thing with Rachel Dollen since the First Crusade.
| Your Famous Movie Kiss is from Romeo + Juliet |
 "Has my heart loved 'till now? Forswear it, sight! For I never saw a true beauty 'till this night." |
| You Are Pretty Happy |
 You generally have a happy, fulfilling life. But things could be a little better, and deep down, you know it. Maybe you need more supportive friends or a more challenging career. Something is preventing you from being totally happy. You just need to figure out what it is! |
| You Belong in Paris |
 Stylish and expressive, you were meant for Paris. The art, the fashion, the wine! Whether you're enjoying the cafe life or a beautiful park... You'll love living in the most chic place on earth. |
I seem to get Paris a lot.
2 comments:
Don't listen! Maybe just cut down some time on the novel... but don't stop completely!!!! That is insane. Writing is who you are and no one should come in the way of that!
Thanks Shelia. That was alot of help.
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