Showing posts with label Bad Vibes. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Bad Vibes. Show all posts

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Constantine's Sword Continued: The World and The Holocaust

We're discussing Maus in English, so I thought that this would be a good time to continue my thoughts about Constantine's Sword, this time dealing a bit with anti-semetism as I will be speaking about the Holocaust. For readers who are not familiar with the previous post, I am setting up a link to the first post here. I don't know if that post has much to do with this, but I figured it's related to the same topics, and I might as well add it.
So, the Holocaust and the Nazis have been popping up pretty often in my English course, which is why I'm writing this. This is a response to a question raised by my professor. I thought it would be a good idea to do this as a blog post. Maus is pretty directly about the Holocaust, since it's the memoirs of the author's father and his father's survival in Auschwitz, but imagery of World War Two and the Holocaust has been popping up in lots of places in our readings. We've seen it in the first three poems, which were there to deal with World War One, but we've seen reference to the Holocaust and the Nazis in Leonard Cohen, Sylvia Plath, Robertson Davies and probably a few others I've forgotten. Ironically, I also read Roberto Bolano's Nazi Literature of the Americas around this time, which while being a Spanish novel or anthology can apply to this. The question that my professor raised is, why does everything seem to lead back to the Holocaust?

I've been trying to understand this myself. It's not like people kill other people, heck this is probably going on right now. But why does this particular thing have so much affect on us. You could slap on a picture of a swastika to something and automatically that thing is tainted.
To be perfectly honest, I don't have any good idea why this is. In the absence of any rational exclamation, I will go on to non rational. My guess is that the Nazis made a giant psychic wound that we have no understanding of how they did it. They may not even have conciously known that they were doing it, except for a select few but those were all shot or activly trying to do this. Because of this hole in the fabric of the universe, our conciousness is trying to process all this information. Since the Nazis were at the right time and place in history to pull this off, they have been able to do this, and we are dealing with their psychic refugee. I really don't think something like this is out of the question. Some of the Nazis, especially Himmler were into weird magick-with-a-k stuff like this. I'm not saying this is there actual plan, but maybe I'm wrong about this more, and the fact I can apply something as heighnous as a gouging out the collective unconcious of mankind is just something that comes from this. Maybe that was what the Holocaust was, and since it got more press then other mass genocides it was given more precident.

Once, as a child, I had a fantasy world I would play in and fight various fictional enemies in. One of these were alien Nazis from another demension. I didn't really understand what the Nazis were for, at least not in the big picture. I knew that they were evil, and that was all that matters. This dosen't have to do with anything in this, but I thought it would be important to bring up. It may be important to note that they were also the opposite of my good-semi elvish species the Draan. I have recently decided that once I get around to creating the Draan language, Hebrew will be a major influence.

Thursday, September 20, 2007

Screwed-up Japanese Movie

The good news is I am not completely desensitized to violence! The bad news is I'm going to have nightmares about Japanese school kids brutally murdering themselves for months.
I was going to Art class ahead of time, which meant that the cartoon and comic club would be there. Usually they watch harmless stuff which I can handle, such as Popeye or the Animatrix, but today they where watching Battle Royale, which is about a bunch of Japanese School kids who are forced to fight each other to death on an island until only one survives. It is very brutal and there are a bunch of kids who die in very painful ways. I didn't enjoy it and after they turned it off I had to ask for some hugs and I'm still all wound up about it.
On a lighter note I was worried that I was becoming desensitized to media violence. So I suppose seeing this movie wasn't all bad.

Sunday, January 14, 2007

Thing on disapointment and Game Mastering which turned into a bunch of questions on SELLING OUT!

So I've spent most of my day waiting for this show I want to watch to come on and I'm starting to think it isn't. I've also tried doing some yoga because my right shoulder is aching. Unfortunatly I don't have the flexibility nor the equipment to actually do it. It's annoying. I'm feeling a large level of stress.
Of course, the annoying bit of me I want to drop into the docks with concrete golashes is telling me I should do my homework. God, I hate that little voice inside my head. Yes, I admit I probubly should, but I just don't feel like doing it. School is reaching a very stressful area what with exams coming up and generally when something stresses me I don't want to do it anymore. Unfortunatly School just seems to forse itself on me. It's annoying and I am not in the frame of mind for doing anything about it because then I start saying things that could get me arrested and then my EA is all "Writer, stop it," and that only sets me of more because I hate people trying to control me. It's annoying and it makes me angry.
So, for lake of anything better to do I'm trying to organize the next bit in the campaign me and Loncrow are doing. I'm finding it kind of hard, since I have to basically come up with a story with minimal character involvement. I've got the basic idea, but because of the fact I'm using my own mythology I need to do write up's for many of the creatures, and rewrite several of the creatures in the mythology. For instance in standard D&D and possibly D20 rules an archon is Lawful Good, while in my own mythology an archon tends toward lawful evil. Thankfully I've got the basic idea behing the monsters featured in this adventure. Maybe I could eventually sell this as a campaign setting. Something like Heaven-vs-Hell/Conspiracy-Theory/Multiple-Dimensional/Epic Fantasy/Urban Fantasy style.
I suppose writing up things for Role-Playing Games wouldn't be so bad. It could help pay the bills at least, but would this bring me to an area I don't want to go to in my career? Would I get trapped writing this kind of thing for the rest of my life? Not that this wouldn't neccesarily be a bad thing, but would anyone take me seriously in the kind of identity I want to take if I am an employee for Wizards of The Coast. Probubly not, but I still think many of the worlds I've created would make great role-playing games. I'm just worried if this would qualify as selling out.
Is selling out even important today? Can I sell out and still be taken seriously? Or is it that nothing is taken seriously today and therefore selling out no longer has any meaning? Is it even possible to not sell out? Am I destined one day to sell out because it is the way of the universe? This is all very confusing for me. Maybe I'm just worrying about something. Maybe I should get of my lazy ass and start writing the answers for the stupid health thing.
Anyway, on the game, I still need to get Loncrow over so we can do the game. I'd contact him on my new MSN, but for some reason I can't get ahold of him on it. Maybe I should call him up sometime and say "Hay, Loncrow. Get on MSN we need to talk."
This is making me way to Melencholy. I'm going to stop writing now. If any of you have any ideas, then please comment. I am in desperate need of spiritual guidence.