Wish you were here

Sorry, I haven’t blogged recently. It’s been a crazy past few days.
First, and what will be the only subject on this blog. My great-uncle died a few days ago. We are going to the funeral today, so I get today of. I guess that is okay if this wasn’t going to be such a sad day.
This is bringing up all kinds of emotions for me. Manly bad ones that I haven’t felt before. It’s like all of a sudden a part of my soul just disappeared and I don’t know how. It is very confusing and sad. I barely even knew the guy, but I feel sad because my mom knew him and my grandparents knew him, and it makes them sad. And I don’t like it when people close to me feel sad. It makes me feel very sad.

The following is a song by Pink Floyd. I don’t know if my great-uncle liked Pink Floyd, but I snag it to myself when I was alone in my room. I started crying when I did it. It’s called Wish you were here, and is on the album of the same name. I recommend you listen to it. It is a good album.

So, so you think you can tell Heaven from Hell,

blue skies from pain.

Can you tell a green field from a cold steel rail?

A smile from a veil?

Do you think you can tell?

And did they get you to trade your heroes for ghosts?

Hot ashes for trees?

Hot air for a cool breeze?

Cold comfort for change?

And did you exchange a walk on part in the war for a lead role in a cage?

How I wish, how I wish you were here.

We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl, year after year,

Running over the same old ground.

What have you found?

The same old fears.

Wish you were here.

Looking at it, it doesn’t have much to do with the situation, except that we wish he was here.

Monday off, How I Hate the Spartans and Returned Access to the Library

On Monday, my stomach wasn’t feeling that good. I stayed home because of it, even after Lunch when it was feeling better. It was a pretty good time. I watched Fistful of Dollars, starring Clint Eastwood. It was a good movie. I also found a Library card that I had previously lost. I didn’t go because my mom said that it wasn’t fair since I didn’t go to school.

The next day I went to the Library. I returned most of the books I had out and got two new ones. One is the Ringworld Engineers, by Larry Niven and the other is a collection of short stories by Robert E. Howard. I Like the Ringworld Engineers, but I haven’t got into the Robert E. Howard book. In case your wondering, Robert E. Howard is the guy who came up with Conan the Barbarian. Since it is in more or less the style of R.A. Salvatore’s Drizzt Saga, I figured I would give it a try, but I understand that the character of Conan is more dark then Drizzt.

I’m thinking about trying to come up with my own sword and sorcery stories. I’m working on a Dungeons and Dragons campaign setting that could work as that. I may have talked about this in an earlier post. I may also try and get something about Nai’Atha to whoever is in charge of Forgotten Realms books at Wizards of the Coast. Nai’Atha is a character I play in Dungeons and Dragons, but I use him exclusively in Forgotten Realms. Alright, I have only played in the Forgotten Realms, but I plan on keeping it like that. I think I could make it a five-book series. The Nai’Atha Epic, I could call it. I don’t know if it would happen, because I plan and hope Nai’Atha as being a sort of rouge element in the political landscape of Forgotten Realms.

Anyway, today I learned about the Spartans in history class. The Spartans were a Greek city-state that were famous for there militaristic life-style. I don’t like the Spartans because they had complete control over the people for the survival of their nation with no regard for the individual’s development as a person. They are a good example with my beliefs of nationalism. If I haven’t already told you about my feelings of nationalism, I will explain them now.
I believe that Nationalism is bad because it has leaders, and while some leaders are okay people I give Elizabeth the First and Woodrow Wilson as examples, they can also be really screwed up people who desire military conquest at the expense (and lives) of there citizens. This is pointless because nations are not real things as much as abstract concepts that serve no real purpose. To me, the ideal society is where all people get along because religious, racial and political differences are not an issue, because they do not exist. I will go into further detail in my next post.

School, Lost Wallets, People Overload and A Hard To Find Movie

It was my Mom who made the mysterious blog. She wanted her own and I’m going to get her a new one so she doesn’t have to use mine.
On a sadder note I have lost my Library Card. I figure that I’ll have to bring all the books back, which is a shame because I got an essay that could have helped me with my Samurai essay.

In Comm Tech, we are making a commercial and I hate it. I believe that it can all be brought back to my partners in this project, who I sincerely believe are incompetent. First we couldn’t come up with an idea that wasn’t sexist (the product is high heal shoes). The teacher said that we couldn’t and I said I would think up one. Well, I wasn’t having that good of a day, so I cracked up and went home. The next day they came up with an idea, but I believe it lacks imagination. I have an idea that I believe will get a great mark, but I also know that those homophobes won’t take it because it would involve one of us wearing high heal shoes. (The idea being there so comftorble even men are wearing them)
I would like to say that I don’t know if these people are homophobes, but I’m just real angry.

It’s been a hell of a time this weekend. I’m surrounded by people, family but never the less people. Yesterday there was a family reunion on my mother’s side of the family. The food was great, but I spent most of the time around people. I was okay with it near the end, and there isn’t going to be as many people. It’s probably not going to be that bad.

I am also looking for the movie Mirrormask. The screenplay for Mirrormask was written by Neil Gaiman, who is one of my favourite writers. Steph, I wouldn’t be surprised if you already know about him, but if you don’t I recommend it. I suggest starting out with Neverwhere and Stardust to start, because it’s not as messed up as some of his other works. If you want to go straight in I suggest American Gods and the Sandman series. Sandman is a series of graphic novels. Anyway, no movie store in town is renting out copies. I’m a little ticked of by this.

Besides discovering Internet science fiction radio and then discovering I need membership or something to listean to it know, I have nothing else to say.

Samarai and Strange Happenings

Oddest thing happened while I was getting ready to make a post on Aspie Diaries. I was on the dashboard thing, right, and I saw these blogs that I didn’t make there called After All These Years. I deleted it and changed my password. I’m a little scared that this was able to come up without my knowledge.

Well, I’m working on an essay in history. I was given the option to choose any subject I wanted so I choose Samauri because I wanted to learn more about Samauri. I was the only person in history class since everyone else was at an archeological dig. I didn’t feel like going so I stayed at school and read about Bushido. Hm, that’s a good sentence. I should remember it.
I also went to the Public Library on the Weekend. I got some books that I hope will help me learn to write good science fiction.
Well, I haven’t got much more information then that.

Heimingway, Free Internet Radio and other things

My writing is bothering me. It’s not that I hate doing it, I just that writing seems to be the only real job that I want and I am capable of doing. I can see myself working as an artist, I am a bit of a sketch artist and I do draw a lot of my creations and such, but in the end I wouldn’t be able to not write. Even writing this makes me want to write more. I mean fiction.
The problem I have is that I don’t think I’m that good. I mean I’m pretty good at coming up with new and fantastic worlds and that is pretty important when you’re a science fiction and fantasy writer, but I don’t think I have the right knowledge to actually write it. My dad says that I should read some non-science fiction works. So I got a copy of The Sun Also Rises by Ernest Hemingway and a collection of his short stories. I also got Ray Bradbury’s Zen and the Art of Writing and a list of classic novels to read. I’m hoping that reading all this will give me a better understanding of writing.
Also, I have learned that I really don’t like the term Science Fiction, something about it just doesn’t appeal to me, so know on I will call it Scientific Romance as H.G. Welles did before me.

Well, now to talk about what happened at school today.
In Latin, I hade some bread with olive oil on it. I also learned that there is something of a cult following of Grumio in the world of Latin academia. Grumio is a slave to Caecilius in the first unit of Latin and he is popular among my Latin class. One of my classmates believes that Grumio has managed to survive to the present day. Unlikely since Grumio never existed.
In Communications Technology, we watched an episode of the Apprentice, a program that I have never watched until today. The people on the Apprentice were assigned to create an add campaign for a Laborgini, which is a fancy form of car. Our teacher did this because we are going to do an add campaign for high heal shoes. I’m okay with this, because while I am against the corporation this doesn’t affect my beliefs much. I’m a little unsure about our project manager’s competence however.

For Lunch, I had a peanut butter and honey sandwich and to much trifle.
Math went by without me falling asleep for too long. I have some homework to do. I think I’ll get around to it after dinner.
In History we watched more of Troy. I saw Troy in the theatres and didn’t like it that much. It wasn’t as faithful to the original to the best of my knowledge. I’m not an expert on it or even know that much about the story, but I have a ruff outline of the story.
When I got home I went searching for a new source of free Internet radio, since I have finally lost my useless yahoo account. I have found a new source of toons on the Internet and will see how this works for me.

Have I made a post recently? It doesn’t feel like it. Anyway, this is what I’ve been up to.
First, I’m thinking about deleting the RPG blog and putting any RPG related stuff on Aspie Diaries. I try making new blogs to much. I’m going to work completely on this blog.
Second, I went to the Library and got some books. One of them is a collection of poems by John Keats. I only got it because John Keats is a character in Dan Simmons’ Hyperion and I figured it might be interesting. I wouldn’t even have bothered getting it if I hadn’t read Hyperion. I wonder if that means anything.
Third, I have the start of a new Dungeons and Dragons group. To Loncrow and Korzio/Ruric if you guys are reading this, I will be stepping out of the Guan Tylgrym campaign. It will be difficult continuing it considering that we are all in different cities, but if we ever get a chance I would like to start another campaign. I’ll update you on the new group as soon as we start a campaign.
Fourthly, I’m going on a Youth progressive dinner at. The Church I’m in has this whole youth thing were they concentrate on teaching kids about Christianity and stuff in a way that’s not boring and they throw these big things. I’m looking forward to asking the new pastor things at "Ask Frank anything,". His name is not Frank, but I don’t want to give away his identity. But that’s not what I’m doing today. Today I will be going the homes of several people from Church and have a sort dinner. I’ll have an appetiser at one house, the full course at another house, and desert at my house. The dessert will be followed by a movie.
That’s what I’m up to. Bye.

My theory about making freinds

As an Aspie, I have difficulties around people. To me social interaction is a completely alien concept. I spend my life on the outside of human civilization looking in. Temple Grandin (I hope I’m spelling this right) defines this as one of the key factors to the Aspie mind, we are observers of the human condition. However, we can have theories. That is what this post is about, my theories on a social interaction. This is how I believe making friends works. Please give feed back.
The way I see it there is two ways of making friends. First, you find someone and find a common ground. This happened with my friend Loncrow and more recently with some kids in my Latin class who play Dungeons and Dragons. The second way is that you meet someone who is friends with a friend you already have. That is what happened with me and Ruric.

That’s it, and happy Thanksgiving for anyone in Canada.

War? What War?

I don’t watch the news, but I occasionally hear about what’s going on around the world by chance, and one thing that has been bothering me is that I am not hearing anything about the war in Iraq. I asked my mom about this, because she is addicted to the news, and she said that she hasn’t heard anything either.
This is a bit of a problem. I’m against the war in Iraq, I’m against war in general, but the least that the American people could do is to talk about the pointless war that’s going on to supply the Galactic Empire with the vital Spice that must flow (That was an allusion to Frank Herbert’s Dune series, Spice is the miracle substance that the Empire runs on in the series. I mean oil). Didn’t they show Vietnam on CNN or something? Vietnam was about as pointless as Iraq, didn’t they pay more attention then this. I understand with all the hurricanes and everything the American people are a little distracted, but think of the Veterans, man. I’ll bet there a little pissed about the complete lack of coverage for the war. I am as sorry as I can be for the people who’s lives have been screwed up by the Hurricanes, but I still think that if your going to have a pointless war you should at least give the poor boys over there some more TV time so we can all see how pointless this is.

The Three-Day Weekend

Okay, this is what happened to me during my weekend.
To start with, it was (or is, I don’t know for sure) a three-day weekend, so I got Friday of. Because it was a three-day weekend, I invited by friend Loncrow over. I have talked about Loncrow in earlier posts. We played on his Playstation 2 and watched Chronicles of Riddick and Van Helsing. I have seen Van Helsing before, and I would say that it is a good movie. I loved Chronicles of Riddick, because it seemed like a good science fiction universe. He also showed me a new RPG called Achaea. It’s interesting but I’m having some difficulty getting the hang of it.

After Loncrow left I spent the rest of the day being more or less bored. I got a new book at the mall and pointed out some books to my mom that I liked. I also had some Pizza at some relatives house.
Today, I did something I haven’t done in awhile. I went to church. To tell you the truth it wasn’t that thrilling. For the most part I tried to make myself comftorble in the chairs. I don’t know if I will come back as often.